30.1.04
yeah, so last week i saw my niece. or at least i thought it was my niece and it was cool cuz now id be a real tio. but then somebody said that it couldnt possibly be my niece unless it was my sibling's child. so this little one is not actually my niece but more like my 2nd or 3rd cousin. oh well but it was really nice to go see her. really nice. i love babies. and good baby jokes too. yeah, on the way home from wisconsin i saw a sign that said 'bong recreational area'. it made my day. well, no, seeing leah made my day but seein the sign was just icing on the cake. so, my cousin's got a gf. quite interesting cuz i never noticed it b4 but after he told me i was wonderin how i hadnt seen it b4. somehow she got my sn and we started talkin a lot online. and she was tellin me how im a completely different person from what she thought. like all she knew of me was from church. and thats a completely diff side of me. i was thinkin about it, and i actually have 3 different sides. 1 of course is the one that most ppl see, me at school. on maietta's 'get to know you' (dont even think it dad...) sheet i put eccentric down under 3 words to describe yourself. its how i act for majority of an average day. even at an interview the alumn asked me 'how do other people describe you?' what a crap question. how the hell should i know how others describe me? but nvrtheless, i just described myself and touched on my goals and how they've changed over the years. she asked me to talk about my personality and the only thing i could think of was 'ill do just about anything to get a smile outta someone.' and then she's like 'sooo, you'd be labeled as the class clown?' 'wellll sorta...yeah' i dont really know how she took that but still. thats one side of me that most of ya know. then theres a side of me that ppl see at church. in church im the perfect kid. the kid that other parents tell their kids to try to be like, the one that all the parents are tellin mine how good i am and how lucky they are to have me. just about everybody there loves me. thats side #2. then at home that's yet another totally different side of me. how many different sides do you have in your life? which one is really you? like for example for the past 3 years i thought somebody was a complete and total ditz. and its funny cuz now that i talk to em a lot more i see that that's not really them. funky.
yeah, so maciej's been puttin up tons of fliers and notes all over the school for me to get a date to turny next sat. even mrs megall knew all about it. it even came to the point where she offered to go w/ me. my god. but then jenna asked me which was totally jawesome. yes, its totally in the bag. and that's true on so many levels. im not sure what group we're goin in but it seems that we're in high demand. we'll see what happens. oh yeah, this story has got to be told. we were doin subjunctive sentences in spanish dealin w/ doubt and all like 'i wonder if my dog will die if i kick it (that sentence was courtesy of howell). so we were readin sentences in class and el modelo said sumthin to the effect of 'i wonder if siby has a date to turnabout' and then for about half the class we started talkin bout me and turnabout. then megall asked if i would go w/ a jr. sure. soph? sure. frosh even? tal vez. so then she asked who all had younger sisters and somebody mentioned damian's lil sister but she's in french so that was a nono. then somebody mentioned altier's sister, kara and when megall found out she took spanish she was like 'ohhh, tio puede ir con su hermana sergio.' and he's just like 'no, no' 'por que no, sergio?' 'porque...es tio'. then that night i decided to call kara just for kicks. i got it so kara and matt wouldnt pick up the phone and altier answered and when i asked to talk to kara he was just like 'oh my god, i hate you, im going to kill you, this isnt funny.' but i thought it was extremely funny. another thing. y do ppl say it was funny but ya had to be there? obviously i wasnt and if its only funny if i was there, y the hell are ya tellin me? dumbasses.
the herf jones ppl came on wednesday and we had to turn in our announcements stuff. wow. its already here. kerrazy. 4 years has just flown by. but wait, so many ppl say that and i just stop and think of how chalk full of memories i have from in and outside of school. how many zillions of weeks i prayed for the weekend to speed up in coming, how many hours i sat in classes askin ppl how many minutes was left or lookin at the clock and memberin the time one teacher said they wanted to put up a sign up by the clock that said 'time will pass. will you?'. i mean, i made a hugemondo (<-word of the day. or wait, is it huge-'mongo'?) of inside jokes and its absolutely beautiful. there's still more to come; its a work in progress. but whenever i think of this stuff, it hasnt gone by that fast. its actually been quite a while. yeah, back to herf jones. i think there were some optional special items and the majority of ppl i know got a memory tassle. its a damn shame we never get real tassles. 'y not' you ask? cuz we dont get hats for graduation. 'what' you say, 'how can ya have a graduation w/o hats?' well fenfen says that the hats are unsafe cuz somebody might throw it up and it could come down and jab somebody's eye out. i admit this would not be cool but then again the asbestos in certain parts of the school is prolly more unsafe than hats at graduation. pshhh. but i didnt get a tassle but instead got a senior tshirt. it might be one of those shirts that says 'SENIOR' really big across the front that ya always see other ppl waitin and ya long for the day you're a sr and you can wear the shirt w/ pride. but no, its just a white shirt that says 2004. as if i dont know what year it is. then just to confirm my doubts it spells it out for my convenience. oh joy. i saw they had a bunch of black shirts and asked if i could have one of those instead and lady leaned over, put a hand up, and said 'those are girls' shirts'. so i had this shirt that said 2004 on it. great. then in physics somebody said they wanted to sign it so for the past 2 days ppl have been signing it and its def a work of art. altier: 'stay the hell away from my sister!!!' fabbo: 'thats embarrassing, get some class' lund: 'pembroke ate chalk today' lor: 'cure your malaria' pat ryan: 'good luck w/ 7-11!' (i told pat to write that, hes not that much of an asshole). but the best is madden's. it was my suggestion to him for the track shirt and he put it on mine. i dont think my idea woulda got approved anyways cuz it was a lil blue. but hey, there one right now isnt bad. 'fenfen track - we finish quick'. madden said hed hook me up w/ one lata.
im hopin to go out w/ one totally rockin kid, kurdz tmrw after banua. i doubt my parentsll lemme but im hopin for the best. i stg, at the end of the year, im not even gonna ask my parents for permission or nothin. im just gonna be like 'hey, im goin over to damian's apartment. ill be back tmrw sometime' and just leave. they asked me couple days ago if i wanted a graduation party. i didnt know what to say. see, i dunno if i should. my sister had one when she graduated but all her friends are really...good, for lack of a better word. not that you all arent but still. like if i did have a party at my house it wouldnt be one of the big bashes that we're all hopin damian's gonna duplicate at the end of the year. its gonna be durin the day, pretty laid back. should there be indian food or american? friends from school only? anybody from school? should i have my relatives over too and perchance risk my parents callin all their friends too? i think ill worry bout that when the time comes. im still tryna think of a good sr prank. i got 2 in mind. if anybody's wonderin, they were teh 2 that were discussed at the enjoyable physics study session. i just realized that i say 'we'll see what happens' a whole lot. i think that's my new catch phrase. now ill be ready if some goddamn app asks me what it is. tday i played ping pong w/ my dad and let him win 8 games. we usually play 10 21-pt rounds and just about every day i win all 10, or i might give him one if im in a good mood. but i just wasnt into it tday and just let him win. he loved it bc he thought i was actually tryin. quite amusin.
yeah, i was tryna decide what the song of the day would be and for the first time in history, its a tie. btwn 'fingerbang' and 'happy valentine's day'. both of them quality songs. in tribute to both ill shower ya w/ some lyrics:
'im gonna fingerbang, bang you into my life, girl, you like to fingerbang and it's allright. cause im the king of fingerbang, let's not fight. ill just fingerbang, bang you every night!'
'happy valentine's day. (every day the 14th!) i dont think yall heard me, i just wanna say happy valentine's day. (every day the 14th!) can yall dig that? ... you wont blv in me but you would fancy leprauchans or groundhogs, no thank you, easter bunny! (there's so much fuss about santa clause but see, cupid will not be defeated)' what an incredible song. and what timing. they best play that at turny or i's'll be pissed.
and to counter the 2 diff songs of the day, 2 diff sites of the day: bangbangbang, and all your base. the first of those is courtesy of damian.
quotes:
'no more talk of blow up dolls :)'
'so what can you tell about these people? scott?' 'welll, i guess they really liked big women'
'yeah, so i slowly take off my seatbelt...' 'and grab the gum from under the seat' 'shut up tommy'
'i went out to get a quick lunch. - the boss'
'will you go to turny w/ me?'
'there's so many stops cuz they dont have the whole sheet of music'
'rachel's getting screwed from both sides!'
'bianca'd like swiss cheese cuz shed like to play with it...' 'correct!' '...and put her fingers in the holes...' 'wait...' 'and tutes' is saganaki...cause it's served flaming.'
'dr b! my virgin ears!' 'yeah, thats the only thing virgin on ya'
oh, and btw, operation: dodge the bullet is still in effect. and just to make it even, another word of the day for yall: chiquita . . . dont even think about movin in on my girl, asshole...
a haiku:
we all like big girls
cigarettes around the room
happy birthday liz.
yeah, so maciej's been puttin up tons of fliers and notes all over the school for me to get a date to turny next sat. even mrs megall knew all about it. it even came to the point where she offered to go w/ me. my god. but then jenna asked me which was totally jawesome. yes, its totally in the bag. and that's true on so many levels. im not sure what group we're goin in but it seems that we're in high demand. we'll see what happens. oh yeah, this story has got to be told. we were doin subjunctive sentences in spanish dealin w/ doubt and all like 'i wonder if my dog will die if i kick it (that sentence was courtesy of howell). so we were readin sentences in class and el modelo said sumthin to the effect of 'i wonder if siby has a date to turnabout' and then for about half the class we started talkin bout me and turnabout. then megall asked if i would go w/ a jr. sure. soph? sure. frosh even? tal vez. so then she asked who all had younger sisters and somebody mentioned damian's lil sister but she's in french so that was a nono. then somebody mentioned altier's sister, kara and when megall found out she took spanish she was like 'ohhh, tio puede ir con su hermana sergio.' and he's just like 'no, no' 'por que no, sergio?' 'porque...es tio'. then that night i decided to call kara just for kicks. i got it so kara and matt wouldnt pick up the phone and altier answered and when i asked to talk to kara he was just like 'oh my god, i hate you, im going to kill you, this isnt funny.' but i thought it was extremely funny. another thing. y do ppl say it was funny but ya had to be there? obviously i wasnt and if its only funny if i was there, y the hell are ya tellin me? dumbasses.
the herf jones ppl came on wednesday and we had to turn in our announcements stuff. wow. its already here. kerrazy. 4 years has just flown by. but wait, so many ppl say that and i just stop and think of how chalk full of memories i have from in and outside of school. how many zillions of weeks i prayed for the weekend to speed up in coming, how many hours i sat in classes askin ppl how many minutes was left or lookin at the clock and memberin the time one teacher said they wanted to put up a sign up by the clock that said 'time will pass. will you?'. i mean, i made a hugemondo (<-word of the day. or wait, is it huge-'mongo'?) of inside jokes and its absolutely beautiful. there's still more to come; its a work in progress. but whenever i think of this stuff, it hasnt gone by that fast. its actually been quite a while. yeah, back to herf jones. i think there were some optional special items and the majority of ppl i know got a memory tassle. its a damn shame we never get real tassles. 'y not' you ask? cuz we dont get hats for graduation. 'what' you say, 'how can ya have a graduation w/o hats?' well fenfen says that the hats are unsafe cuz somebody might throw it up and it could come down and jab somebody's eye out. i admit this would not be cool but then again the asbestos in certain parts of the school is prolly more unsafe than hats at graduation. pshhh. but i didnt get a tassle but instead got a senior tshirt. it might be one of those shirts that says 'SENIOR' really big across the front that ya always see other ppl waitin and ya long for the day you're a sr and you can wear the shirt w/ pride. but no, its just a white shirt that says 2004. as if i dont know what year it is. then just to confirm my doubts it spells it out for my convenience. oh joy. i saw they had a bunch of black shirts and asked if i could have one of those instead and lady leaned over, put a hand up, and said 'those are girls' shirts'. so i had this shirt that said 2004 on it. great. then in physics somebody said they wanted to sign it so for the past 2 days ppl have been signing it and its def a work of art. altier: 'stay the hell away from my sister!!!' fabbo: 'thats embarrassing, get some class' lund: 'pembroke ate chalk today' lor: 'cure your malaria' pat ryan: 'good luck w/ 7-11!' (i told pat to write that, hes not that much of an asshole). but the best is madden's. it was my suggestion to him for the track shirt and he put it on mine. i dont think my idea woulda got approved anyways cuz it was a lil blue. but hey, there one right now isnt bad. 'fenfen track - we finish quick'. madden said hed hook me up w/ one lata.
im hopin to go out w/ one totally rockin kid, kurdz tmrw after banua. i doubt my parentsll lemme but im hopin for the best. i stg, at the end of the year, im not even gonna ask my parents for permission or nothin. im just gonna be like 'hey, im goin over to damian's apartment. ill be back tmrw sometime' and just leave. they asked me couple days ago if i wanted a graduation party. i didnt know what to say. see, i dunno if i should. my sister had one when she graduated but all her friends are really...good, for lack of a better word. not that you all arent but still. like if i did have a party at my house it wouldnt be one of the big bashes that we're all hopin damian's gonna duplicate at the end of the year. its gonna be durin the day, pretty laid back. should there be indian food or american? friends from school only? anybody from school? should i have my relatives over too and perchance risk my parents callin all their friends too? i think ill worry bout that when the time comes. im still tryna think of a good sr prank. i got 2 in mind. if anybody's wonderin, they were teh 2 that were discussed at the enjoyable physics study session. i just realized that i say 'we'll see what happens' a whole lot. i think that's my new catch phrase. now ill be ready if some goddamn app asks me what it is. tday i played ping pong w/ my dad and let him win 8 games. we usually play 10 21-pt rounds and just about every day i win all 10, or i might give him one if im in a good mood. but i just wasnt into it tday and just let him win. he loved it bc he thought i was actually tryin. quite amusin.
yeah, i was tryna decide what the song of the day would be and for the first time in history, its a tie. btwn 'fingerbang' and 'happy valentine's day'. both of them quality songs. in tribute to both ill shower ya w/ some lyrics:
'im gonna fingerbang, bang you into my life, girl, you like to fingerbang and it's allright. cause im the king of fingerbang, let's not fight. ill just fingerbang, bang you every night!'
'happy valentine's day. (every day the 14th!) i dont think yall heard me, i just wanna say happy valentine's day. (every day the 14th!) can yall dig that? ... you wont blv in me but you would fancy leprauchans or groundhogs, no thank you, easter bunny! (there's so much fuss about santa clause but see, cupid will not be defeated)' what an incredible song. and what timing. they best play that at turny or i's'll be pissed.
and to counter the 2 diff songs of the day, 2 diff sites of the day: bangbangbang, and all your base. the first of those is courtesy of damian.
quotes:
'no more talk of blow up dolls :)'
'so what can you tell about these people? scott?' 'welll, i guess they really liked big women'
'yeah, so i slowly take off my seatbelt...' 'and grab the gum from under the seat' 'shut up tommy'
'i went out to get a quick lunch. - the boss'
'will you go to turny w/ me?'
'there's so many stops cuz they dont have the whole sheet of music'
'rachel's getting screwed from both sides!'
'bianca'd like swiss cheese cuz shed like to play with it...' 'correct!' '...and put her fingers in the holes...' 'wait...' 'and tutes' is saganaki...cause it's served flaming.'
'dr b! my virgin ears!' 'yeah, thats the only thing virgin on ya'
oh, and btw, operation: dodge the bullet is still in effect. and just to make it even, another word of the day for yall: chiquita . . . dont even think about movin in on my girl, asshole...
a haiku:
we all like big girls
cigarettes around the room
happy birthday liz.
24.1.04
the other day i was in one of those 'let's contemplate life' moods. i was sittin in my room which is rather rare cuz im always downstairs at the dining table w/ my laptop. i hafta be on the computer either chatting, listenin to mp3's, playin a game, writing a post, or writing a story or sumthin like that. yes, i do write different stories that do not go up on the blog. some are just things that im feelin deep down that i dont really want ppl to know about. others are other peoples feelings. whaa? i make up a scenario or a setting and its sorta like you're lookin at a picture w/ a sorta omnicient viewpoint and ya find out what everyone is thinking about. i love doing these. the last one i did was some guy that was stuck at an airport and just the stuff he saw and thought about. i once showed somebody and they said it was crap and ever since then i havent really ever showed anybody any again. my parents found out i was doin things like these, and they suggested i write a book or sumthin. i think its a lot harder writing a whole story, a whole plot thatll be interesting. for now i just stick w/ like one time, one place, one or two people and thats it. its quite enjoyable; i suggest ya try it sometime. i think i started doin these bc i enjoy just sitting and watching people. i could actually do this for hours on end. through freshman/sophomore years i would always be the last person sittin on the stairs in front of school and i would just watch ppl. how they talk, act, react. how guys act around girls and vice versa. how ppl act in groups and stuff. i do this a whole lot when im forced to go shoppin w/ my parents. they go to sears or jcpenny at the mall and i just plop down someplace and watch as ppl go by. cut, cut, cut. anywho, i was sittin in my room just lookin around thinkin, tryna sorta a whole lotta stuff out that has been goin on recently. then outta nowhere i wondered what would happen if there was a fire. y, i dunno but i just started thinkin this. if there was a fire, what would i grab in my arms in the few moments b4 i ran outside? its really difficult bc ya see one thing but then ya see another. then ya gotta think bout if ya take the stuff ya prolly need or do ya try to go for the sentimental stuff that cant be replaced. like there's tons of stuff in my house that i could get the exact thing of but it still wouldnt be the same thing. like sometimes i just keep crap ppl give me. like, i think it was last yr i was havin a really crappy day and somebody was tryna cheer me up in 4/5 and gave me a sticker that said, 'you're a star'. i still have it on my desk and every time i see it i think of that person. would i really, truly lose anything if this lil sticker went up in flames? i got a big bag in my drawer w/ all the letters and cards ive ever gotten ever since 3rd grade. should i go for that over something really expensive, that could prolly easily be replaced, like my laptop for example?
yeah, its been a super long week. ever just have one of those weeks? where you're just totally feelin blah? i cant really describe it. somebody just told me the word 'mellonkolly'. yeah, 'mellonkolly's' about right. who knows. have ya ever had that feelin where everybody's life seems better than your own? like ya look at every single person ya know and ya see how theirs is better. its not really the 'grass is greener on the other side of the fence' sorta feelin cuz not necessarily do ya want what they have. its just that on all levels theres sumthin that cant be accomplished, sumthin thatll never be obtained, sumthin thatll never be experienced, sumthin thatll never be understood. there was only 4 days of school this week but it still felt like it would never end. the last time i had a week like this, it was strictly school related. it was the week b4 midterms last yr and every single teacher wanted to get in a test b4 the sem ended. i havent really been stressed this much since then. funny thing is that now i could care less about school. its up for grabs if imma leave ap spanish and switch chem classes. im not workin that hard in any of my classes and my grades are showin it. im prolly not gonna get into my #1 choice school either. but its strange how none this really even phases me. hmmmmmmm. oh yeah, question for yall. ever just wish you could erase someone? not kill them, just sorta remove them, take em outta your life somehow. you see them often, and ya put on a show at face value, but deep down there's sumthin else goin on. every time ya see them your mind wells up with feelings, emotions, and thoughts that you dont necessarily want to have but at the same time cant prevent. ya try to suppress whats inside and try to convince yourself it doesnt bother you, but this just makes it all the more real and unconquerable. j/w. a wise man on wednesday told me, 'what fool came up with practice makes perfect? either you're perfect or you're not. no changing anything. practicell never make perfect. practice just makes...tired.' oh so true.
song of the moment: offspring - the kids aren't alright
my apologies, that was a rather downer of a post. i (and keven too) think you might enjoy this. yeah, it might help if ya know japanese, but if ya dont, a certain memeber of my spanish class can help ya w/ that.
'ok kyle, you're being a negative nancy. stop it, k? unless you want everone to call you negative nancy from now on.'
kief: get some class
me: get some socks
yeah, its been a super long week. ever just have one of those weeks? where you're just totally feelin blah? i cant really describe it. somebody just told me the word 'mellonkolly'. yeah, 'mellonkolly's' about right. who knows. have ya ever had that feelin where everybody's life seems better than your own? like ya look at every single person ya know and ya see how theirs is better. its not really the 'grass is greener on the other side of the fence' sorta feelin cuz not necessarily do ya want what they have. its just that on all levels theres sumthin that cant be accomplished, sumthin thatll never be obtained, sumthin thatll never be experienced, sumthin thatll never be understood. there was only 4 days of school this week but it still felt like it would never end. the last time i had a week like this, it was strictly school related. it was the week b4 midterms last yr and every single teacher wanted to get in a test b4 the sem ended. i havent really been stressed this much since then. funny thing is that now i could care less about school. its up for grabs if imma leave ap spanish and switch chem classes. im not workin that hard in any of my classes and my grades are showin it. im prolly not gonna get into my #1 choice school either. but its strange how none this really even phases me. hmmmmmmm. oh yeah, question for yall. ever just wish you could erase someone? not kill them, just sorta remove them, take em outta your life somehow. you see them often, and ya put on a show at face value, but deep down there's sumthin else goin on. every time ya see them your mind wells up with feelings, emotions, and thoughts that you dont necessarily want to have but at the same time cant prevent. ya try to suppress whats inside and try to convince yourself it doesnt bother you, but this just makes it all the more real and unconquerable. j/w. a wise man on wednesday told me, 'what fool came up with practice makes perfect? either you're perfect or you're not. no changing anything. practicell never make perfect. practice just makes...tired.' oh so true.
song of the moment: offspring - the kids aren't alright
my apologies, that was a rather downer of a post. i (and keven too) think you might enjoy this. yeah, it might help if ya know japanese, but if ya dont, a certain memeber of my spanish class can help ya w/ that.
'ok kyle, you're being a negative nancy. stop it, k? unless you want everone to call you negative nancy from now on.'
kief: get some class
me: get some socks
16.1.04
BeezerBEAVER8: i demand a new blog
BeezerBEAVER8: today
sibysamuel: y?
BeezerBEAVER8: because
BeezerBEAVER8: they are intriguing
BeezerBEAVER8: dont study
BeezerBEAVER8: write my child
BeezerBEAVER8: write
sibysamuel: no way i can do a post tday
BeezerBEAVER8: study child
BeezerBEAVER8: study
sibysamuel: here, if itll help any ill send ya a pic, ok?
BeezerBEAVER8: ok
BeezerBEAVER8: i wont bother
BeezerBEAVER8: good luck my friend
sibysamuel: prolly on friday most likely
BeezerBEAVER8: god speed
yeah, this is prolly extremely sacreligious or sumthin, but cmon, even da vinci would be proud if he saw this. we're all gonna go to hell. see, we were all havin a study session for physics at big pis' (which was extremely profitable) and in the midst of a problem damian suggests we do a last supper pose and i suggest we do it w/ pizza. good times.
lange: ever wonder why they're all on one side of the table?
blanco: course, they all wanted to be in the picture
couple days ago i was at this one lil get together at a friend's house. no this was no big bash like there was at damian's (no, i didn't know about it) it was all indians if that gives ya any idea of the setting. then we started talkin bout how we're gettin a new church. see, at present, our present church cant hold the 550+ families that are tryna squeeze in every sunday. i sorta like the massive amount of ppl cuz i actually know just about everyone there seein as ive been goin there ever since i can remember. theres alotta politics involved, but a buncha ppl (includin my parents) want a new church bc its too crowded and it takes too long to get there and all that. just about all my friends live close by the church putting them in the 'old church' category, so i was hopin all this would only take place after i left for college, but no, its started already. (raina, i doubt this is gonna work...) now, there's one service in the morning for the ppl who are stayin at the original church and then theres a service in the evening for all the ppl who want a new church. the thing is that we need about 1.5 mil to build a new church and we really have that much on hand so until then we gotta just use the old church building. and now with the new church, they're lookin for a new choir director for the english choir and the first person they could think of was me cuz im the oldest person at the new church who's still in choir and ive been assistant director of the choir b4. i dont wanna be in the spotlight or anything so i quickly turned down the role but im sure imma be asked a million more times about it. but w/e's happen, my mom sorta organized a 'lil' choir practice for all the kids in the new church this saturday at our house. i think theres around 40 kids under the age of 15 comin over. see, at the old church they had auditions and all if ya wanted to be in choir but now w/ everything up for grabs its sorta like anybody who wants to be in choir can be in it. i hope they do start doin auditions or there'll just be tons of kids that dont even wanna be there. see, back in the day, ya had to be 9 yrs old if ya wanted to try out for choir and for some reason my parents got me to try out when i was 8 and it was acceptable cuz of my bday bein in september and me havin skipped a grade and all that stuff. (last week i met a jr who was older than me. funky) then there was a big fuss that parents pulled and they were like 'y cant my kid try out? siby got in when he was 8.' see all the problems my parents caused? these kinda problems have been goin on for the 9 yrs btwn then and now. christ, back to my topic. the new and old church division is pretty much based on location. my mom was happy that a buncha girls that she says are 'kiniki kiniki' (yeah, its malayalam. the other day browncock pointed out that its a palindrome. interesting) around me. for example, at this one wedding there were like 2 guys and myself sittin at a table. at this wedding there werent any seating arrangements. the typical thing is for adults to sit in their diff social circles and younger guys and girls to always sit at separate tables. just the way it is. but the 3 of us saw a girl walkin by and we invited her over and she was like 'what will the adults think?' and we just said wed cover for her and say it was the way they do it in america. so then we got some more guys and some more girls at our table. out of all the tables ours was the only one w/ girls and guys sittin tgether. its just typical indian culture to always have the guys and girls doin everything separately. cant explain it. but then 2 girls were sittin next to me at this wedding and course, i talked to them through the whole thing. if they had been guys ida been the same thing but since they were girls my parents noticed and thought there was summthin btwn us and told me to stay away from them. what up? and at my church theres a number of girls that my parents have told me to stay away from. not bc they're bad association or anything; its all just bc they're girls. total crap. course i dont really pay attention to their demands. (ive discovered that if i do sumthin 'wrong', my parentsll get mad (duh). but if i do it again and again, over time they arent as mad at me. i could talk for hours on how ive experimented w/ this theory but its true) sometimes i even just talk to these girls just to piss off my parents. bummer. i really had somewhere to go w/ this topic, i stg i had a direction. but i forget. oh well.
the other day i had this up in my profile: 'i hate my whole goddamn family, can i join yours? please. no? what if i get on my knees and beg then? ill do anything!' and in just a lil bit napes tells me her mom's seen it and is willin to take me in. (Knapes318: and she was like, we will absolutely adopt him, i don't think your father would notice another child, let alone a small indian one. we could hide him easily.) the papers are gettin messy but in a couple months i will officially be a napleton...
'you dont spend enough siby time'
i was studyin yesterday for the span final (if thats even possible) and kmart IM's me and shows me this and totally makes my day. hope it makes yours too.
qotd: 'hey, do you think it would be inappropriate for me to include in my get well letter for mckinley about how my dog had his colon removed too?'
song of the moment: jet - are you gonna be my girl?
9.1.04
tday after school somebody handed this printout, and it was like some indian matrimonial site and it was an add for a guy named siby, age 26, 5'8'' and the whole gammit and it said it was lookin for a female w/ fair complexion sarahsarahsarah. (oh yeah, any of yoo cmtc ppl, know anil? (no, not yoo d'souza) he put his add in the paper. twas pretty funny) well, if yall wanna see this funky printout, its posted in finnell's room to the right of the countdown. what countdown? THE countdown. 89 days... speakin of finnell, gotta love that class. not so much as the actual class as much as what goes on in it. tday in class i managed to distract him for the first, oh, 30 mins of class by talkin bout just random stuff from bobby brooks aka bobo w/ 'cockmaster' to makin fun of rob held aka 'the sleazy cop' all the way to various instances of sibyduty. he loves to hear stories of any kind. specially if they're on the raunchy side. and he also likes to talk a lot himself. haha, the other day he was tellin me bout some guy who graduated some time back who when he was a junior was asked to juprom by some senior but he said no to her. then he went w/ some other senior girl who had also asked him. after the first girl got shut down she started seein this other jr and they went tgether, hooked up, and later got married. and i was like that's exactly how it was last yr w/ me martha and chrissy. i woulda gone w/ ya chrissy only martha asked me first. chrissy even offered to go to sr prom w/ me after i told her i was already taken for juprom. girl, yoo rock like no other. we'll see what happens. also, i have yet another theory. if somebody makes a crack bout a girl likin some guy and the girl starts laughin and gets all embarassed, im thinkin it means its bc the girl actually does have a crush on the guy. yoo may not think so but if the girl didnt really like the guy why would she get embarassed in the first place? like tday meera was tryna put on her bro's tie cuz they were actin out in english (which calc V got an encore presentation of which was great) and she asked me how to do it and i took off mine and was tryna show her and finnell suggests that either me or damian stand behind her and do it. ummmm, i think not. but like anytime he makes a crack bout me and meera she gets all embarassed. does this mean she likes me? not that her liking me would change the slightest thing but im just curious to see if my theory is true. then tday i was explaining it in math team durin a timed set. and i was like 'see, if i made a crack about puds (the only girl there) likin tutes she wouldnt get embarassed cuz she prolly doesnt like him. but then on the other hand if i made a crack bout her havin a crush on me, shed obviously get embarassed.' and just about everybody is tryna make it look like they're still workin by just starin down that their math sets, but then kief looks up at just bursts out laughin, and then everybody looks up and puds' face is beet red. i dunno but this whole theory could just be a fluke. psh, prolly is.
the other day i was talkin to rach and she asked me why i was so tired. i told her i was pretty busy the night b4. she asked me what i was doin and after i told her, after a pause, shes like 'siby you're too busy helping others you never have any time left for yourself.' the night b4 i had helped somebody w/ physics hw, helped somebody buffer up a college essay, and put all of farran's hw online, help somebody w/ calc, and help a couple other ppl w/ chem. this was all apart from all the hw i had to do that night. maybe what she said was true. but then again, can i just stop helpin ppl in order to get more time for myself? see, as some of yoo might know im 'in' friar mentors. i never go up to the room at 7.30 in the morning but im available whenever ppl ask me. helpin ppl out brings me joy. i mean, cmon, i even wrote a whole essay on maureen about it. ... once again ive started a topic thats not goin anywhere. oh yeah, the highlight of that day: woj poppin his head into the room and sayin 'ur the man siby!' i mean, my modelo tells me this. wow.
last thurs i was very disapointed. there's this girl, becky, that works in medical records. she's a senior too and's been workin there for a while now. every thurs as i walk by, i wink and she waves. its been like this for months. once over the summer i stopped by there and had a nice, interesting conversation w/ her. quite a character. but then last thurs she wasnt there. this isnt usual. becky's always there. every single thurs. i inquired on her whereabouts and turns out her family moved to boston. goodbye. funny how she was always happy and always had a smile for me. one of those ppl that just pick ya up right when ya see em. theres only a couple other ppl i know like that. also funny how i sorta miss her now even though i didnt really know her that well. its the small joys like this that just make all the truckin worthwile.
in dr b's we read some sonnet bout love and there was a line like 'alterations cannot alter it' and then we got into a discussion of sumthin i dont recall. but i personally think that if you're goin out w/ somebody and sumthin happens and ya both decide to break up based on sumthin thats happened, was it really 'true love' btwn the two of yoo? this is discluding outside stuff like ppl moving, goin to college and stuff. parents in my case. for example, if alex and jennifer are goin out. jennifer starts cheatin on alex. if alex decides he doesnt love jennifer anymore did he truly love her to begin w/? i mean, they can break up and all but he can still love her even though he's not goin out w/ her (im sorta in that state right now...). am i gettin this across? i mean, isnt true love supposed to last regardless of anything the other person does or what other ppl might say or anything like that? waddaya think?
quotes:
'you guys broke my spirit'
'i knew how to do it but i just had a headache' 'dont tell your wife that'
'yeah, a man's pay is usually 1.6 time's a woman's' 'that's it? it should be like 3 or 4'
best quote of the past couple months: 'at least ill get laid'
song of the moment: cream - white room
Cole12321: siby- you can join my family any day!
this is one of the many reasons why nicole is one of the loves of my life ;)
game of the season
the other day i was talkin to rach and she asked me why i was so tired. i told her i was pretty busy the night b4. she asked me what i was doin and after i told her, after a pause, shes like 'siby you're too busy helping others you never have any time left for yourself.' the night b4 i had helped somebody w/ physics hw, helped somebody buffer up a college essay, and put all of farran's hw online, help somebody w/ calc, and help a couple other ppl w/ chem. this was all apart from all the hw i had to do that night. maybe what she said was true. but then again, can i just stop helpin ppl in order to get more time for myself? see, as some of yoo might know im 'in' friar mentors. i never go up to the room at 7.30 in the morning but im available whenever ppl ask me. helpin ppl out brings me joy. i mean, cmon, i even wrote a whole essay on maureen about it. ... once again ive started a topic thats not goin anywhere. oh yeah, the highlight of that day: woj poppin his head into the room and sayin 'ur the man siby!' i mean, my modelo tells me this. wow.
last thurs i was very disapointed. there's this girl, becky, that works in medical records. she's a senior too and's been workin there for a while now. every thurs as i walk by, i wink and she waves. its been like this for months. once over the summer i stopped by there and had a nice, interesting conversation w/ her. quite a character. but then last thurs she wasnt there. this isnt usual. becky's always there. every single thurs. i inquired on her whereabouts and turns out her family moved to boston. goodbye. funny how she was always happy and always had a smile for me. one of those ppl that just pick ya up right when ya see em. theres only a couple other ppl i know like that. also funny how i sorta miss her now even though i didnt really know her that well. its the small joys like this that just make all the truckin worthwile.
in dr b's we read some sonnet bout love and there was a line like 'alterations cannot alter it' and then we got into a discussion of sumthin i dont recall. but i personally think that if you're goin out w/ somebody and sumthin happens and ya both decide to break up based on sumthin thats happened, was it really 'true love' btwn the two of yoo? this is discluding outside stuff like ppl moving, goin to college and stuff. parents in my case. for example, if alex and jennifer are goin out. jennifer starts cheatin on alex. if alex decides he doesnt love jennifer anymore did he truly love her to begin w/? i mean, they can break up and all but he can still love her even though he's not goin out w/ her (im sorta in that state right now...). am i gettin this across? i mean, isnt true love supposed to last regardless of anything the other person does or what other ppl might say or anything like that? waddaya think?
quotes:
'you guys broke my spirit'
'i knew how to do it but i just had a headache' 'dont tell your wife that'
'yeah, a man's pay is usually 1.6 time's a woman's' 'that's it? it should be like 3 or 4'
best quote of the past couple months: 'at least ill get laid'
song of the moment: cream - white room
Cole12321: siby- you can join my family any day!
this is one of the many reasons why nicole is one of the loves of my life ;)
game of the season
4.1.04
whew, my new years was increi'ble. i was at the marriott hotel in marco island fl and they had some ballroom thingy from 9-1 and surprisingly my parents said i could go. both of them said they were too tired after the flight in. i had tons of fun on the 31st although i cant really remember too much of it though. i woke up the next morning in a hotel room that sorta looked like my own. then i look over and see this girl sleepin next to me id never seen b4 in my entire life. i had no recollection of what id done the night b4, how id gotten there, or anything at all. psych. pulled your chain didnt i? ('if you pull my chain ill wrap it around your neck and strangle you w/ it'). yeah, so i really didnt do anything for new years. yes, i was in marco island but i think around twelve oh oh i was sittin in bed just reflectin on this past yr and on whatll happen in the future. nothing extremely exciting but something that i havent done in a while and sorta felt good. yes, i wished i was at altier's big bash but that didnt exactly work out. oh well. there'll be many more opps. or will there? we'll see. so ive been in fl for the last couple days, not really doin much at all. i went out on a jetski yesterday. i wasnt old enough to drive it, so i was sittin behind my dad who didnt go fast at all bc he was scared we'd flip everytime there was a big bump. cmon, the thing's called a 'waverunner' for a reason. i watched the last samurai while i was here; wasnt bad. no i didnt watch it on the hotel tv, i watched it on my laptop. oh, for all of yoo who know/care. if ur ever at a hotel that offers movies of any sort and ya wanna watch but not pay here's what ya gotta do. just select w/e ya want then call the desk and say ya accidently selected a movie thinkin thered be a trailer or sumthin but ya didnt intend to really watch it. they take it off your bill and there's no way to reverse yoo gettin the movie and yoo can watch w/e ya want. course, this only works once a visit. is it a bad thing that im always tryna find a way around things? sometimes i try to think of how to steal things, cheat ppl, bypass security, screw up machines w/o ever gettin caught. not that i would ever do anything like this but i think about it. okokok, im not a total ass goin round tryna figure out all the ways i can cause mischief. i also think of ways to make ppl smile. some of these things are just goofy and some are well thought of. for example, my god, this is gonna seem incredibly stupid comin out... i think ive told a couple ppl this but ive always wanted to be at some really formal dinner or sumthin and all of a sudden pull a bicycle card outta my front suit pocket and be like 'iiis THIS your card?' see, right there, some of yoo may find this extremely gay others may think this is remotely funny. prolly more the former. yeah, ive been told before i had a screwed up sense of humor. back to fl. had tons of fun at the beach. the whole experience was just a whole buncha eye candy if ya know what i mean. ;) and another thing, i dunno what it is w/ belly buttons but i find them extremely attractive. err, wait. belly button rings . funny bc when i was younger i thought they were tacky, but now i like em a helluvalot. kudos to yoo brianne! i asked my parents how far ft myers was cuz i found out beth was chillin there, and they said it wasnt far but when they found out it was a girl they's like hell no. couple more months girl... (how many days rach? i dunno how but rachel always knows the exact # right off the top of her head) it was also nice that marriott provided a table tennis area. just about any of yoo who know me know im crazy bout ping pong. i couldnt tell ya how many games i played gainst my dad. i also spent the rest of my time just catchin up on reading. i finished reading this book called 'the r document' its bout this ammendment that's gonna be passed that will override the bill of rights and an attourney gen is fightin against the head of the head of the fbi. a very good book if i ever read one. i dunno how many off yoo like legal books and all but im big on that stuff. actually b4 i was set on bein a psychiatrist i had a mind to get into the white house. then i turned this idea down thinkin of how many indian ppl there are right now in the white house. so that idea went outta the window. then i was really interested in law. becomin a lawyer was one of my dreams i had but then everybody i told would always try to discourage me outta it bc of all the corruption and all and settin guilty ppl free. maybe im not as determined as id like to think i am. hwvr, whatever ppl try to tell me i am NOT lettin this psychiatrist dream go. just bout everybody i tell brings up such movies as 'the sixth sense' or ''dont say a word' and how psychiatrists are always in over their heads. rigamaroll. god i can never keep on a topic. back to the book. it was a good book and i recommend yoo read it. if ya like it or are into legal books and all, read the book 'dead even'. its on my top 5 list of best read books. (davinci code might be on there but i still gotta get a hold of it. hpfly nicole's gonna give me her copy after her whole fam's read it.) its bout this guy and girl who are married. and ones prosecuting and ones defending and diff ppl tell them both that they cant drop the case or they'll kill the spouse. and the husband and wife are gettin mad at the other for bein so bullheaded when really they're both tryna prevent the other from gettin killed. i finished it in a day. good stuff. also, at our hotel while i was walkin past this one shop i saw that they had some special kinda 'post cards'. basically it was a whole coconut that you could send that already had 'florida' painted on it w/ postage and everything. all ya had to do was write an addy on there and put it in the mail. my parents thought it was the stupidest thing and said that if i wanted to give anybody a coconut i should just get one and put it in my suitcase and save myself the money. party poopers. seriously, how awesome would it be to open up your mailbox and find a coconut? from siby? that would make my day. also, on the drive to the airport (in fl) i saw a sign. it was great. it was like a good omen. check it out and yooll see what im talkin bout. and yoo prollyll think im insane for gettin a kick outta this. and i think imma go to bed now. oh yeah, happy new years to all. but wait, whats all this bout a new years resolution? what should mine be? i dont even recall what my one for last year was but im sure i broke it in about a week. w/e. im out.
rendezvous- 3 (in the pool, playin pingpong, in a lil diner place, oh and another thing, there are few things as wonderful as watchin a fine female eat an ice cream cone...)
qot[other]d: at the store, they had 100% recycled toliet paper... the worst job in the whole world must be recycling toilet paper.
word of the day: thagadamuten - a very large, burly guy
song of the moment: beatles - twist and shout
rendezvous- 3 (in the pool, playin pingpong, in a lil diner place, oh and another thing, there are few things as wonderful as watchin a fine female eat an ice cream cone...)
qot[other]d: at the store, they had 100% recycled toliet paper... the worst job in the whole world must be recycling toilet paper.
word of the day: thagadamuten - a very large, burly guy
song of the moment: beatles - twist and shout
