flame on.

well then. im at at my cousins' house for tnight. i was just chillin and listenin to a new mix cd id made/brought and my aunt's like 'oh i saw you online b4' i didnt know what the hell she was talkin about but she said sumthin bout me bein online or sumthin like that. then i remembered that tday when i had gotten back from math team there was an IM from my cousin priya bc her mom wanted to know if i was goin to their house to sleep over (which i was). since i wasnt there, as usual they got my away mess:

"yeah, so i really hate my parents. nothing new. y, yoo ask. well, here's just a couple reasons off the top of my head. they wont lemme have a gf. they wont lemme get my license. they wont let me go to a dance w/ a date. they wont let me go out with friends. they're racist. they shove god down my throat. they wont let me play sports at school. they expect me to be perfect, like my priss sister. they hate kairos."

just my luck. this is the aunt of mine that talks ALOT. like for example i was spotted w/ this one girl at church at that evening she called my parents and told them about it. she saw me showin some turnabout pics on my camera to my cousins (her sons) and she got pissed and told my parents bout it and even called my uncle/aunt in texas and told them bout it too. this cant be good...

gonna be a pretty fast weekend. friday after school i headed to wisconsin (against my will). if i hadn't gone, id prolly have enjoyed a kennedy cup finals game then prolly a taste of dick's last resort. but that didnt happen. a shot friday. saturday imma be at north park college for math team for most of the morning. im only in one event as opposed to others who are in up to 3. at first i was sorta mad i was only in 1. but then im like, 'hey, who am i kidding? would i really wanna be in more than one of these things?' last yr wasnt bad. after my one event i just chilled in the cafe w/ smith, chen, and pelzer and we made prank calls. we went down there in srini's car which was hella fun. there was super troopers involved. on the way back we got stuck in traffic and even though we sat through a couple green lights we had fun throwin girl scout cookies (which we stole from some team when they left em unattended) at each others cars. if i remember correctly we pulled off a chinese fire drill too. srini's the man. but yeah, thats saturday, then right after that im headin over to my cousin priya's bday party. i might be sleepin over there (hpfly) till sunday. sunday's just gonna be chillin w/ my cousins, andrew (9th) and royson (8th), both very cool kids if i do say so myself. they're like mini me's. no wait, that's jeffrey. yeah i feel ive brought em up right though my parents and theirs think otherwise. somewhere in the middle of all of that i gotta do a scholarship app due on the 1st and another app for summer school at uic due sometime. i highly recommend the program at uic. free classes for jrs/srs in high school. no fees or strings attatched or nothin. at first i didnt wanna take any classes at all this summer cuz i mean, it is my last summer of ... w/e its my last summer of. but then i was thinkin bout it and if i just take one philosophy class it wont be bad. then i remembered all the fun due to me goin to summer school last yr. liz perry, altier, daddy, napes, lil napes. fun galore. ('lemme know if ya see siby...' 'SIBY!!!') we def gotta do a bit more of that next summer.

yeah, scho beezy. we won it. 3 pieces of hardware. as colby once told me frosh year 'know whats the diff btwn getting 1st/2nd/3rd as opposed to 4th?' 'no' 'the hardware baby, the hardware'. we trounced 3 teams. it was beautiful. the whole thing just went our way in terms of questions and everything. there was one answer that was 'dirty snowball', the name of a comet or sumthin. how funny is that? ('ice cream social or snowball facial?' 'ummm...ice cream social' 'y?' 'bc i dont like having stuff on my face'). the last team we played was marist. 2 of their guys were decked out in cowbout outfits and hats. after we beat em we were gonna say 'there's a new sheriff in town' but thad be no class. instead drask took a piss on joliet b4 we left.

what's on my mind nowadays? well the other day we was talkin bout innocence in english. the one time i actually decide to pay attention to what dr b's sayin. then i start thinkin, 'what is innocence?' (my apologies to all of yoo who have heard this b4.) then just for kicks i leaned forward and whispered into kristin's ear, 'do ya think im more innocent than liz perry?' see, kristin used to sit behind me and i would always be turned around 'telling her jokes' as dr b put it. he's sayin sumthin and in the middle he says my name then continues w/ w/e he was sayin. this happens 5-6 times in a given class period. so 2nd sem i decided to sit behind kristin and then we could still talk bout w/e and she could just say it w/o turnin around. even dr b thought it was a good idea. yeah, she makes that class a whole lot more bearable. haha, and pat too. pat and i have THE strangest convos in that class. dr b's up there talkin bout yahoos and such and me and pat are discussing my 'kinky chics' theory. so back to what i was sayin. i ask her and first she says 'perry'. typical response from just about anybody ive asked. but then im like 'but i never go out. im under house arrest at home. perry actually goes out and 'does stuff'. doesnt that sorta change things?' so then it comes to the question of whether innocence is based on experience or just like what you think about. bc like im sure my mind is a lot farther down the gutter than hers is but still in terms of things done... 'siby, you have a list of dead baby jokes on you. of course she's more innocent than you'. well either way, she'll prolly be more innocent than me in all viewpoints after i come back from london. haha, im really lookin forward to meetin bubbles. and w/ fogel and smith as roommates, no tellin whats gonna happen.

so there's some mel gibson passion movie comin out. and theres a big hype if theres anti semitism in it. pshhh. what a waste of time. no, i dont wanna see the movie, its prolly just a bloodbath or sumthin. haha, i was watchin the daily show (after chapelle. 'WHAT? WHAT?' my god, i did that to dr b in english tday and i just about died laughing.) and they showed a clip of the interview w/ mel, and sawyers asked him 'do you blv god wrote this film?' he laughs and says 'god ordains everything; god made my bed' then john stuart is like 'mel gibson is one lazy motherfucker. cant you make your own bed!? god has things to do! make your bed! god's like 'i have a famine, ohh, gibson's bed'. for shame'. its a bit more funny if ya actually saw it. what an awesome show. what an awesome man. what an awesome job. recently theres been a whole lotta talk bout the catholic priests and all. my god. is this freaky or what? see, my grammar school was like a strict, southern baptist w/ really strict rules and all. id get in trouble all the time. for stupid stuff. not wearin a belt, talkin in class, eatin food outside the cafe, 'blatant' disrespect. funny how i never get in trouble at fenfen. or at least not in major trouble. but yeah, it was a school/church thing and the head pastor of the church got into some messy stuff and was forced to resign. and now i found out a couple weeks ago that some of the youth pastors from that school/church were crossin the line w/ some of the girls. like 2 teachers we all know of from fenfen. one of which is gone. one of which is still wreaking havoc. so like i have all that stuff comin from my grammar school. and its ok now bc im in no way affiliated w/ it. even though im not catholic it still sorta bothers me bc im sorta connected to it cuz i go of school. but after a couple months i wont have even that to worry bout. i actually made a vow that if any kind of stuff like this happens in my church i'm going to denounce religion, christ, and god. no other way around it. ill give it all up. i dunno if its me challenging god or what but its the way ive made up my mind and thats that.

farran gave us a talkin to this week bout how we'd start hating fenfen and the teachers and learning and it wouldnt be good. even terryo after the assembly told us not to resent the ppl who brought us as far as we've come. 'discipline, integrity, respect, excellence'. i was talkin to kmart (have i mentioned he rocks?) the other day and he was tellin me that just at the beginning of this week he loathes comin to school. see, ive actually loathed comin for most of sr year. but not completely. the sole reason i go to school is to see friends. well i guess gettin away from my parents factors in too. like, even though it sucks that i practice for a math team event from 3-6, its still 3 hrs i dont hafta deal w/ my parents. if it werent for those 2 reasons i wouldnt come to school at all. i already loathe the place. larsen was tellin me he felt the same thing. farran was makin some analogy to how when we're young we're all solids in that we all are very close to our parents then around now we're in the liquid stage where we're sorta connected and sorta not to our parents. then later on, we become gas, in that we're not connected at all to them. to put it into the words of packey, 'i cant wait to become a gas.' i realized that imma be votin in november. woah. an adult. dayum.

'word' of day: higldy pigldy; the other day i looked up 'no class' in the dictionary and surprisingly i found it in there. it said 'making fun of kiefer', w/e that means...

song of the moment - jukebox hero

rarf quotes
'ill do anything for 5 bucks'
'do your hw and ill coddle you'
'you're a pimple on the ass of the ass of progress'
'im gonna give you a ride that you're not gonna like'
'its not a good idea to go through life w/ an open fly'
'you just have to work it enough and good things'll happen'
'you watch crank yankers?' 'im not a yanker' 'dont kid yourself'
'why do you use a typewriter to do the point standings lists' 'bc it gives me pleasure' 'thats pretty sad' 'i do w/e i can nowadays'

yeah, pretty pissed off. 3 haikus i wrote to help me vent. didnt help.

fall is upon us,
the pollen is blown away,
their fingers can't reach.

the door's left ajar,
they have driven me to it,
there's no turning back.

my head starts to spin,
this sensation in my arms,
deafening silence.

not too much been happenin lately. ssdd. a couple cool things though. for example, the US killerserve chapionship for pingpong was on last night, which was increible. me and nicole had a lil bonding action after school on wednesday, and i told my parents i had math team till 6 which worked out quite nicely. damian and i after this massive dots game are gonna play othello in just about all of our classes. of all ppl to spot randomly at a store, megan quinn. watchin gladiator in western civ right after maietta 'bitched' (see, yoo can never tell if hes pissed or not cuz hell say sumthin then just stop and stare at somebody. and if he was pissed he wouldnt use the same tests. but hes too lazy. making him one of the best teachers at fenfen to have second sem senior year.) 3rd place at the mason's schobeezy tourny, so we's not gonna go down and stay at springfield. w/ or w/o katie. hahaha. there's gonna be a chart w/ scouting info somewhere up in the library soon. and near that a poster where ppl can put down money and bet on the odds of me doin certain things while at london... '4-1 he gets smashed, 5-1 he meets chauncy, 7-1 he gets with chauncy's mom'. 46 days. there was some winkage action at tgif, haha. as paco bizco once said 'ppl dont smile enough'. well i say ppl dont wink enough. there's a lotta things that are just dying out, like 'duh' for example. but every now and then wink at somebody, itll make their day. trust me.

sorry for the lack of meat on this post, imma try to make it up to yoo w/ some chapelle. warning: this is unedited and very crass. but its extremely hillarious. i am not responsible if yoo get offended; thats your problem. well, here it is: dave chapelle stand up. enjoy.

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quotes galore:
'yo, lemme hold a dollar'
'i think you're good enough, siby'
'snap is correct'
'it was his finger or else it was really small'
'id hate all women, its just that they're so damn fine'
'maybe he's still tryna get a date for turnabout'
'oh nick, you're soo good'
'hows she gonna quince this?'
'id go up to a homeless person and tell him bout it and hed be like 'yeah, course i knew that. now gimme 50 cents so i can get some crack'
'pain + nRT/V = pin'
'oh, that's nice, they're clapping for us'
'do you say oo-fo stan?'

for besio:
i'm not mexican
but my name states otherwise
me gusta penis

site of the day - sports illustrated

song of the moment - w/ a lil help from my friends

its been a rather decent week. but b4 this week, last saturday, turny was JAWWESOME. we met at loeffler's and had pics and there was a zillion ppl there cuz his lil sister's group was there too and there was another turny group doin their pics next door. then we went to the dance where some above average music was played. i was rather dissapointed they didnt play happy vday by outkast but the night was still mighty enjoyable. there was some body surfin, glowstick action, booin of the poms, mosh pits, and tons of unkosher dancing. so much fun. i took TONS of pics while there so just ask if ya want a copy of ones ur in. one of the best pics of the whole night was the one of my 2 lesbian friends and outta nowhere, pat. simply beatiful. id hafta rank turny as the #1 dance ive been to above juprom and hc. this was prolly cuz i went w/ jenna which is prolly the main reason ;) but yeah, i just had a helluva time. and this time i also got to go out after. not exactly to anybody's house but i got to go to flat top w/ bout 25-26 other ppl. i heard another group went to dick's last resort and i heard mixed reviews of that. i was talkin to somebody, who will go unmentioned, and we both agreed that dick's last resort wasnt exactly a place to go after a dance. maybe, maybe, a friday night or like last day of school sorta thing but def not after a dance. but some ppl did have fun which is good. even when the waiter threw napkins into the fan and on them. (he did what?) who knows. after flat top everybody headed to loeffler's hat where much fun was had and i heard a gorilla suit was involved... maybe some chics are into that kinda stuff. but yeah, thank you all for a grreat night. and thanks to madden for undisclosed reasons.

'what are ya doin for valentine's day?'
'well...'
'do ya have a girlfriend?'
'no'
'then NOTHING! HAHA!'-------mr curtain has a very interesting sense of humor. but i got a rose for somebody special yest which worked out nicely and that was the extent of my vday activities. so yeah, kairos. so im really stressin over it. strange cuz its been a while since ive stressed over sumthin this much. not school, not standardized tests, not college. nuthin. so much to do in what seems like so lil time. tday we had a bit of bonding after school at panera where we got some stuff done. and jones soda was enjoyed. gotta love that stuff.

'wait, but there's not really any skill involved in it'
'that is where you are wrong'-------so this has gotten around like a record but still. the other day in physics mrs v was a no show and it was suggested by blanco and altier that we make rock, scissors, paper brackets. it was surprising bc we actually got 16 ppl to play and even though it went really fast it did eat up 25 mins worth of class. i took photo/video footage of the whole thing. here's the link to the pics, and i gotta find out how to put up the 3 vids of the final rounds sometime. i was lookin through the pics the other day and it struck me that chiquita has humongous hands. well, hence the name, but still. we played 20 q's the other day of what he couldnt stick his hands into. anywho, i watched most extreme elimination challenge (MXC) 2 days ago on spike and i was greatly amused. for any of yall that havent seen it b4 its some japanese game show where ppl gotta do these stupid things to win stuff. but it's dubbed all wrong w/ diff stuff and the commentators are hillarious. for one theres a wall w/ 4 openings and 3 of them are made of ice and one is just paper and ya gotta run at one of em and hope its the paper one. another was where these guys would have a lil velcro square on their chest and they hafta swing over this pool of mud and hope they stick to another lil square on a huge vertical mat. 2/8 stuck. then if the guy falls they replay it. what a great show. but yesterday i was told that there's a show even better than that on hbo called midgets or sumthin like that and it shows 2 of em gettin married or sumthin. funky. the joys of television. maybe there is more to watch on tv besides comedy central. and blanco, pobre chico, is in the dark about all of this...

'you have been served'
'you'd use gaus' law but you dont know it yet' 'hey, sorta like kairos'
'would ya like a sucker?' 'wait, doesnt that just sound really sick?'

'my god, thats like...50 calories'
'50? more like 30 times that'
'i think i can handle it; i burned a lot of calories tday'
'well, im gonna burn a lot of calories tonight...'

'...you bet your ass.'
'y would you want to bet your ass? y not your pancreas or something?'
'well alex bet his colon, and look what happened to him'

word of the day: swords
song of the moment - crossroad traffic

so this weeks been kinda a jumble. at first there were some days that had mixed emotions but then as the week progressed it just got better and better. for example on tuesday, first it was a + cuz megall wasnt there and we had an in class assignment but me and damian played chess. yes, we played chess. but w/o a chess board. i drew out the board on the back of the practice AMC and damian didnt even do that. he just wrote down the moves we both made and like played on a virtual board in his head. we did that for all of spanish. then in chem i found out i made kairos leader which was def a +. however there were 2-3 ppl who applied who i reallly wanted for them to get it but they didnt. this is sorta like half a -. then in physics i discovered i hoplessly bombed a physics quiz, -. then in math we wasted class for 20 mins talkin bout all diff sortsa stuff. then finnell wanted to start teachin and damian and i were gonna continue our chess game but as soon as he had 1-up'd me a piece (my rook) we called it a game. then damian wanted to play tic tac toe. this got borin really fast cuz whoever goes first wins or its a tie. then i introduced him to 3d tic tac toe which really fascinated him. we were playin against each other but finnell saw us and got pissed off. then we started playin out our heads which was really sweet. id even let him start off. 'A1', 'B5', 'C3', 'B2', 'B8', 'A2'. this is when damian gives me the finger and finnell goes 'damian, is that your IQ or your sperm count?' we were all just appalled. so both of us were tryna think of sumthin really quick to say back to him but we didnt think of anything. so we just got this hand signal. just like we hold up an 'O' w/ our fingers. haha, ask damian what that means. def a +. then after school lor introduced me to anne which was also a nice +. then i came home and my parents told me sumthin bout this kid joshua from my church. last week it was a shock to our whole church that the doctors had found a tumor in his brain. last week when my mom told me about it i couldnt picture the kid in my mind's eye and i was like 'oh' then continued w/ what i was doin. then i stopped and was like 'you inconsiderate prick. somebody has a tumor and you dont even care.' i remembered when my cousin had a tumor when he was 8, but it wasnt cancerous or anything, it was still a shock though. but then like i saw a pic of this kid joshua the next day and the name and the face clicked and i was just shocked. 7 years old. and on that day my mom told me that joshua's tumor was found to be cancerous. definitly a -. yeah, mixed emotions.

but then the week just turned to total happiness. im not sure y. could it be kairos joy tryna wiggle its way into my life? hmmm. i think its just due to the fact that so many ppl are so awesome. tday 01 in about 12 seconds megall gave me a detention for a plaid shirt. but after school coach perry got me outta it. coach perry rocks. (and liz perry too. no question marks or nothin :) and right when the wyse ppl came back from triton damian was like 'is siby still in jug?' and apparently they checked to see if i was in arellano's. oh yeah, it was damian's bday today. HAPPY BDAY DAMIAN!!! yeah, damian rocks. then after lunch the wyse ppl were supposed to go to triton and kohout was nowhere to be found and some of us in physics came up w/: 'just tell your friends you missed wyse because you were getting high. they'll understand'. durin lunch i ironed out the details for after turny. and i mean, cmon, im goin w/ jenna byrne. how awesome is that? yeah, jenna rocks too. then i found out that next week our kairos group is gonna do some bonding at the car show and my group partner is nicole rousakis. yes, nicole rocks too. sweeney's buyin me tix for the darkness concert on the 27th even though i didnt give him money in advance. yes, sweeney rocks. and then in english i slept for 45 mins. what a damn good day. i think my day sorta balances out w/ the fact that as my dad was checking for school closings online last night he decided do listen to my radio show. the caption next to the latest one was 'siby and the ladies' just my luck. see, my parents are under the impression that im goin stag to the dance. thats the only way theyd lemme go. so my dad confronted me about it and said that he didnt listen to the whole thing but was dissapointed at some of the stuff he heard. yeah, woj mentioned that i liked hentai or sumthin. who knows if my dad even know what that is. hahaha, tday i witnessed damian explain to packey what 'bukkake' was. most interesting. 'it sounds like fun...but wouldnt it be really weird when ya saw the other guys later?' yeah, its a good thing the tech ppl are slow in puttin up our shows cuz if my dad heard the last one. my god. but it was a grreat show no doubt. timmons and madden graced us w/ their presence. i suggest you listen to the show, but if ya fear getting hooked onto things (kiefer/oc) then youd better not. yes indeed, it was a magnificent day.

blue site of the day: the alternative language dictionary
song of the moment: jackson brown - running on empty

'great minds think alike' 'the apple doesnt fall far from the tree'
'ooo, you got a personalized message'
'the worst is the last day when you want to die and he sits on a rocking chair and you have to sit on the nasty floor...'
'wow you are just unstoppable right now! first london, then turnabout, now this...'