13.7.04
my god, its been a whole month since my last post. i am one lazy sonofabitch. its been a very good 4 weeks. as usual, ive been hittin up grad parties of various ppl. at one i met this guy manoge. id known of him before but he's 7 years older than me so id never talk to him and i'd talk to his younger sister who was my age. he'd just started a new IT job and was tellin me about it. he asked me if i had a job and i told him my parents wouldnt lemme work at an actual job bc they didnt know what i might do if i had ample cash on my hands. he was goin on about how he was pissed about how his sister just sat around the house and said she couldnt find a job. he said back in the day he worked at mickey d's. i was laughin my ass off w/ all the stories he told of how ppl'd be really racist to him and he'd tell his friend at the grill spit in ppl's food and about all the other pranks he pulled. he said he was forced to stop bc he put on 20 lbs bc he was eating from there so much. that night at that house there was a million kinds of pizza and i for the first time tried jalapeño pizza. the stuff is heavenly. w/ the crushed pepper on top. yum. i broke my diet but hey, who's checkin?
philosophy's pretty sweet. it being 1.30 AM right now im not really sure what to post about so imma tell ya the meaning of life. if you're not interested... blow me. (this is the genius of taylor, not me) if ya look at sisyphus of greek mythology, hes doomed to roll a rock up a hill just to have it roll back down over and over forever. that's a meaningless life. so we gotta see whats missing in his life to determine what makes meaning in life. what if the rock didnt roll down and he just rolled multiple rocks up to build a large temple? would his life be meaningful then? what if each time he created a temple it was immediately destroyed? does that change things a bit? does it matter at all if mr sisyphus wants to roll rocks or not? we could define meaning in life as 'accomplishing X'. but if ya think about it, we may think the things we do are accomplishments like graduating or having a successful relationship but after a while like 200 years, nobody'll care what ya 'accomplished.' what if its an invention of some sort like a computer that ppl remembered for a long time? eventually when the human race ends and the world ends it wont matter what was done. so, technically, we cant really accomplish anything. in a sense, our lives are as meaningless as sisyphus' based on the 'accomplishing X' definition. kinda depressing. the 2nd definition of meaning in life is composed of a person's projects and goals. a person builds his own meaning of life while having a desire to accomplish. regardless of whether he does or not. so lets say i wanna pass an interview. regardless of whether i pass it or not, the mere fact that i did my best to pass it adds meaning to my own life. this second definition also has nothing to do with whether the project/goal is good or bad. so hitler wanted to wipe out all the jews and even though he didnt accommplish it and it wasnt a good goal it still brought meaning to his life bc he did all in his power to try to bring it about. hiter's life has the same meaning and significance as that of mother theresa. kinda hard to grasp at first but when ya realized meaning has nothing to do with moral right and wrong it starts fallin in place. so there ya have it. the meaning of life. consider yourself enlightened.
ive decided to grow my hair out. really long like. my parents are completely opposed to this idea of mine and forced me to get a haircut last week. ya know how when ya go to the barber, not the salons w/ the gay guys im talkin the really cheap places, theres always one really hot chic there and a really fat lady? and youre hopin you're gonna have the girl cut your hair but you get screwed and the fat lady calls you over and starts cutting your hair and presses your head against her chest... anywho, for once i got the salma hayek look alike. i sometimes ask the barber to surprise me and she gave me something called a 'ceasar salad'. who knew there was a type of haircut named after a salad. there's also something called 'carrots and celery.' mushroom cut? is it always food? anywho, my cousin jeffrey saw i got a haircut and decided to cut his own hair and ended up making a mess of his head. what a crazy kid.
i really wanna know how i did on my ap's bc i really dont feel like takin a buncha placement tests online. i cant wait to go to college. its kinda like im drivin to great america and you see the ppl goin nuts on the rides and ya cant wait till you get there so you can go nuts too. not that imma go nuts in college or anything, but still. w/ all this presidential election stuff i realized imma be able to vote this november. wow. kinda just hit me. im an adult. well, sorta. 15, ya get your permit. 16, you get your license (or at least you're supposed to). 17, you get into rated R movies w/o havin to sneak in. 18, you can lotto and vote. 21, you can drink. legally. just a gradual progression. live it. i also cant wait for this road trip to happen either. damian said hes comin w/ too. how can my parents logically say no to a road trip for a weekend (free) and say yes to 10 days in london (what was it, 4 grand?)? they crazy.
vbs was last week from wednesday-saturday. once again i was assigned to preKG. question: why do lil kids find great amusement punching teachers? they're not even mad or anything. they just punch and laugh, punch and laugh. but i did have an awesome time. i got to see all the ppl from the old church that i havent seen since last year. there's this one kid, benji. he's only 5 but he's the coolest kid ever. even cooler than jeffrey. i honestly have never seen this kid not happy. any time he sees me he always waves and flashes this huge smile and says 'hi siby chacha.' this happens multiple times every sunday. just another one of those summer pluses that's makin this summer rock. my parents decided to take my grandparents to washington dc and i refused to go bc ive already been there and it was the same time as vbs. i stayed over at my cousins' for a couple days had tons of fun. '...but the good news is that i saved a buttload of money on my car insurance by switching to geico. i thought that meant something to you...' so much fun.
i saw dodgeball at my cousins' house. i gotta admit it was pretty funny. i dont think it topped zoolander but it was up there. 'i found that if you have a goal, that you might not reach it. but if you dont have one then you are never dissapointed. and i gotta tell ya, it feels phenomenal.' oh so true. yeah, recently ive been goin over to a video store and just renting the wackies movies i can find. foreign films and all that stuff. the only thing is that each movie is for one night and my parents dont know im doin it. my dad doesnt really care what i watch but my mom always is askin 'what is that? what is it rated?' my mom hates all movies. all of em. how sad is that? so i gotta sneak these movies in and i watch em downstairs. the most recent one was twin warriors. hehe, last monday i had to return a movie but i had forgotten all about it till around 11 and my parents were still up. so i waited till around 11.30 when they were asleep and hopped on my bike and headed over. how pathetic, i cant even drive to the local blockbuster. ever been biking 5 miles at around 11.45 at night? its an experience, let me tell you. my my my. imma crash.
quotes:
'...and i just realized 'i miss siby''
'what is that? a bomb?'
'hmm, or is it spelled d-i-e-g-o?'
'no man, i hate my grandparents. they died and didnt leave me any money'
'what kinda crackhead puts a toilet in his room?'
'she is soo uncool. and she's blind.'
'well my conclusion is hate is baggage. life's too short to be pissed off all the time. it's just not worth it.'
'children, what have i told you about drugs!' 'that theres a time and a place for everything and it's called college'
'i found that if you have a goal, that you might not reach it. but if you dont have one then you are never dissapointed. and i gotta tell ya, it feels phenomenal.'
song of the moment: hurts so good
book of now: not all books are always good the second time around but love in the time of cholera def is
random site: lotr is gay
random thought: it would really suck if your [indian] parents found out you were goin out w/ a girl from church for the past couple months and threatened to poison themselves...
philosophy's pretty sweet. it being 1.30 AM right now im not really sure what to post about so imma tell ya the meaning of life. if you're not interested... blow me. (this is the genius of taylor, not me) if ya look at sisyphus of greek mythology, hes doomed to roll a rock up a hill just to have it roll back down over and over forever. that's a meaningless life. so we gotta see whats missing in his life to determine what makes meaning in life. what if the rock didnt roll down and he just rolled multiple rocks up to build a large temple? would his life be meaningful then? what if each time he created a temple it was immediately destroyed? does that change things a bit? does it matter at all if mr sisyphus wants to roll rocks or not? we could define meaning in life as 'accomplishing X'. but if ya think about it, we may think the things we do are accomplishments like graduating or having a successful relationship but after a while like 200 years, nobody'll care what ya 'accomplished.' what if its an invention of some sort like a computer that ppl remembered for a long time? eventually when the human race ends and the world ends it wont matter what was done. so, technically, we cant really accomplish anything. in a sense, our lives are as meaningless as sisyphus' based on the 'accomplishing X' definition. kinda depressing. the 2nd definition of meaning in life is composed of a person's projects and goals. a person builds his own meaning of life while having a desire to accomplish. regardless of whether he does or not. so lets say i wanna pass an interview. regardless of whether i pass it or not, the mere fact that i did my best to pass it adds meaning to my own life. this second definition also has nothing to do with whether the project/goal is good or bad. so hitler wanted to wipe out all the jews and even though he didnt accommplish it and it wasnt a good goal it still brought meaning to his life bc he did all in his power to try to bring it about. hiter's life has the same meaning and significance as that of mother theresa. kinda hard to grasp at first but when ya realized meaning has nothing to do with moral right and wrong it starts fallin in place. so there ya have it. the meaning of life. consider yourself enlightened.
ive decided to grow my hair out. really long like. my parents are completely opposed to this idea of mine and forced me to get a haircut last week. ya know how when ya go to the barber, not the salons w/ the gay guys im talkin the really cheap places, theres always one really hot chic there and a really fat lady? and youre hopin you're gonna have the girl cut your hair but you get screwed and the fat lady calls you over and starts cutting your hair and presses your head against her chest... anywho, for once i got the salma hayek look alike. i sometimes ask the barber to surprise me and she gave me something called a 'ceasar salad'. who knew there was a type of haircut named after a salad. there's also something called 'carrots and celery.' mushroom cut? is it always food? anywho, my cousin jeffrey saw i got a haircut and decided to cut his own hair and ended up making a mess of his head. what a crazy kid.
i really wanna know how i did on my ap's bc i really dont feel like takin a buncha placement tests online. i cant wait to go to college. its kinda like im drivin to great america and you see the ppl goin nuts on the rides and ya cant wait till you get there so you can go nuts too. not that imma go nuts in college or anything, but still. w/ all this presidential election stuff i realized imma be able to vote this november. wow. kinda just hit me. im an adult. well, sorta. 15, ya get your permit. 16, you get your license (or at least you're supposed to). 17, you get into rated R movies w/o havin to sneak in. 18, you can lotto and vote. 21, you can drink. legally. just a gradual progression. live it. i also cant wait for this road trip to happen either. damian said hes comin w/ too. how can my parents logically say no to a road trip for a weekend (free) and say yes to 10 days in london (what was it, 4 grand?)? they crazy.
vbs was last week from wednesday-saturday. once again i was assigned to preKG. question: why do lil kids find great amusement punching teachers? they're not even mad or anything. they just punch and laugh, punch and laugh. but i did have an awesome time. i got to see all the ppl from the old church that i havent seen since last year. there's this one kid, benji. he's only 5 but he's the coolest kid ever. even cooler than jeffrey. i honestly have never seen this kid not happy. any time he sees me he always waves and flashes this huge smile and says 'hi siby chacha.' this happens multiple times every sunday. just another one of those summer pluses that's makin this summer rock. my parents decided to take my grandparents to washington dc and i refused to go bc ive already been there and it was the same time as vbs. i stayed over at my cousins' for a couple days had tons of fun. '...but the good news is that i saved a buttload of money on my car insurance by switching to geico. i thought that meant something to you...' so much fun.
i saw dodgeball at my cousins' house. i gotta admit it was pretty funny. i dont think it topped zoolander but it was up there. 'i found that if you have a goal, that you might not reach it. but if you dont have one then you are never dissapointed. and i gotta tell ya, it feels phenomenal.' oh so true. yeah, recently ive been goin over to a video store and just renting the wackies movies i can find. foreign films and all that stuff. the only thing is that each movie is for one night and my parents dont know im doin it. my dad doesnt really care what i watch but my mom always is askin 'what is that? what is it rated?' my mom hates all movies. all of em. how sad is that? so i gotta sneak these movies in and i watch em downstairs. the most recent one was twin warriors. hehe, last monday i had to return a movie but i had forgotten all about it till around 11 and my parents were still up. so i waited till around 11.30 when they were asleep and hopped on my bike and headed over. how pathetic, i cant even drive to the local blockbuster. ever been biking 5 miles at around 11.45 at night? its an experience, let me tell you. my my my. imma crash.
quotes:
'...and i just realized 'i miss siby''
'what is that? a bomb?'
'hmm, or is it spelled d-i-e-g-o?'
'no man, i hate my grandparents. they died and didnt leave me any money'
'what kinda crackhead puts a toilet in his room?'
'she is soo uncool. and she's blind.'
'well my conclusion is hate is baggage. life's too short to be pissed off all the time. it's just not worth it.'
'children, what have i told you about drugs!' 'that theres a time and a place for everything and it's called college'
'i found that if you have a goal, that you might not reach it. but if you dont have one then you are never dissapointed. and i gotta tell ya, it feels phenomenal.'
song of the moment: hurts so good
book of now: not all books are always good the second time around but love in the time of cholera def is
random site: lotr is gay
random thought: it would really suck if your [indian] parents found out you were goin out w/ a girl from church for the past couple months and threatened to poison themselves...
